Franny is laying on the oriental
carpet, her head almost hidden beneath the bottom of the sofa that once
belonged to her boyfriend’s grandmother.
FRANNY:
You don’t understand me, ever.
BOY: No!
Franny, stop it! That is exactly what I’m talking about. How can you swing to
such extremes? Just yesterday you were telling me how the cosmos knit together
into a “fiber of conscious warmth” and now you’re… despondent.
FRANNY:
I am.
BOY: Oh,
my God. I can’t take it. I love you so much, but when you act like this you
just push me away. I think you actually enjoy feeling like this.
She speaks through her tears.
FRANNY:
How can you say that? Why would anyone want to feel this way?
BOY:
Because you indulge it. Look at you! Come on, sit up. Let’s go for a walk. It’ll
help you shake this off.
She places a forearm across her
eyes like a cold compress.
FRANNY:
I can’t.
BOY:
You read me that article last week, the one about conditioning? It said that
over time a depressed mind will come to react to feelings like this as though
they were drugs. That it’s almost like you’re craving this feeling and that on
some level you get a, a high from it.
FRANNY:
You probably mean a low.
BOY:
What? Ok, sure, fine. A low. Come on, Franny, let’s go. Here, I’ll get your
boots. We’ll go to the Winter Garden. I bet all those birds will be there,
happy to see you. We’ll check if anyone scattered seed today.
When he leaves the room, she
turns her head to watch him, pausing before exhaling loudly and slowly propping
herself up with her elbows as though she’s seeing the plane in front of her for
the first time. Her head sweeps across the room before she pulls herself to
sit, drawing her knees up. She turns to place her back against the couch as Boy
enters again empty-handed.
BOY:
I couldn’t find them.
FRANNY:
They’re by the door.
She slides backwards up to the seat
of the couch. Boy hovers in front of her, silently willing her to stand. She
does.
Ok,
let’s go.
Franny pulls on her boots, laces
them slowly from a crouched position, and takes her peacoat from the coat rack.
She does not turn to Boy; she simply closes the door behind her and we see in
the mirror as she walks by the lack of any reflection other than her own.
you should be a writer for Girls. or a screenwriter of some sort. you are insanely talented. X
ReplyDeleteAnd you are insanely sweet. Thank you, Lex.
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